Goodbye 2012, Welcome 2013!

And here we are, back to the time of the year where everybody makes a reviewe of the year that its ending.

About 2012 I can say it was one of the weirdest years of my life.

 It started with a big sad notice of a friend who passed away. I remember you every day Mariana, and I hope you're in a great place. Then bad news at university.

In March started a good phase, when I made my car license and I got a job at Diga Sports doing the job I wished. 

My godson was born, I made my first tatoo and I had a great summer starting my 100% of autonomy.

New back down in October with my father sickness and much stress at work. Buyed my first car, started to live   alone, etc...

With all these diferent times, I can say it was one of the best and at the same time, one of the worst years of my life.

In a way, I'm glad it is ending, and I'm looking foward to the new adventures that 2013 can bring to my life  experience.

I wish you all a 2013 full of amazing experiences!!!

The Pursuit of Happiness

I woke up with a big need of writting... What to write? I don't know, I just felt the need of sharing once again some of the thoughts that crossed my mind lately.
People live their life searching for happiness, what it's that? To have a lover? To create a family? To have the job of you life? To be where you want to be? To do what you want to do? To have good friends?
All this things can help you to being happy, depending in wich are your life's objectives. Remember: happyness it's not and end, but a way.
Don't live searching for it, live having it in everything you do!
Fight for your dreams, cause if you really fight for them, they can happen! If they don't it's because is not the time to them yet.

Since more or less 3 month I started to have my full independence. It's amazing when you feel you're the only one who control your life. That you have the power to make decisions by your own, that you can do what you like.
In only 3 month I already made many things that I never had done, because the money I had wasn't really mine, wasn't earned by me.
And you know what? I'm happy! Of course I will not tell you that life's perfect, because it isn't indeed. It's hard to be away of my family and all life friends, it's hard to live in a foreign country where you have to speak another language, where you don't know many people, where you find that many of your life meanings don't really exist, but only depends on you to adapt yourself to that.
I can say I already have some friends here, I can say that I started to enjoy a kind of job that isn't at all my dream job, I can say I learned already many things about others and most important, I learned a lot about myself!

To end this post I just want to let you an advice: don't make depend your happiness of what doesn't depend on you and simplify things. That way you'll fell that life's amazing!

Have a nice night and enjoy every moment, cause one day you'll not be here to read this thoughts!

CARPE DIEM!

Safety and Risk

Risk - Wake up, life is waiting for you!
Safety - I just wanna stay in the comfort of my bed, here I feel safe.
Risk - Are you crazy? One day you'll notice that to live always for the safe it's not living, and then will be to late and you'll regret for losing the precious time in your bed.
Safety - But here I know it's almost impossible to I get hurt, to suffer or to something bad happen.
Risk - Yes, so stay there and in a few years we talk.

10 years later...

Risk - How it's the comfort of your bed?
Safety - The same as 10 years ago, starts to get boring, but I'm so used to it, that I'm afraid to change. And your crazy life?
Risk - I've had good and bad moments, I laughed, I cried, I had fun, I met good and bad people, I traveled around the world and lost myself several times, I got hurt many times, but then I just got up stronger and happier than before, I made many mistakes, but I learned with them, so I don't regret anything, because everything lasted the time it had to last to be unforgettable!
Safety - Really? But you seem so happy to a person o lived all those bad things...
Risk - And I am! Because I look back and I see that I got the most I could from life, the good and the bad, and I learned some lessons every time something bad happened.
Safety - I'm in the 30's an I didn't tried anything new because I was afraid. Do you think it's possible to you teach me how to live like you? It seems funny...
Risk - It's never too late to start living! Come on, let's show you the fun of the life!

Thougts

The name of this blog it's horizons of my thoughts, and I don't remember to talk exactly about thoughts.

Lately some people have being telling me that I think too much.
Maybe that's truth, maybe not... I'm trying to figure out if, in fact, I should think less, or if I think the enough to live my life happy and relaxed, without falling in places that can bring me pain.
It's kind of funny how your thoughts change along your life. When things you told you would never do, you do them, and you enjoy. Food you don't like when you try the first time, and a few years later you like. People that at first time you have a less good impression, and then became good friends, and the other side too. Works you    say you will not want to do and then you do them and you feel realised.

Life it's a surprise box with good and bad things, you can't control all of them, but you can choose how you react to them. For some you have to think before you take the desicions, for other you just have to folow your instint and live the moment without thinking what can happen then, or how will things go be after it. If in those cases things turn into a way that you don't really understand, you just think how to get over it in the best way, and make your move.

Many people say that you should never follow your heart, other say that you shouldn't follow your brain.
I do both! And when one of them speaks louder, I try to calm it down and get the right balance.

Think the enough and Carpe Diem!!!

Changes incoming...

"It's not aowed to enter those who aren't surprised to exist!"

There are times in life that somethings that you were wishing, happen with such a velocity that you can't even understand if they're really happening or if it's just a dream...

I'm passing one of those times right now, my heart it's beating so fast, my mind it's miles and miles away from my body.

It's like I'm floating...

Now it's just going with the flow... Starting a life were only I control... Be responsible for everything, learn how to survive by myself.

Have I doubts?

Yes, it's easy to say that you want something, but it's hard to choose what things from your past will you take with you... I'm thinking of only take memories, because material things would be really hard to choose what to take, so i'll take what fit's in my heart and mind...

Am I afraid?

Of course I am! But what's life without big challenges?

When an opportunity appears, grab it with both hands, even if the fear you feel seems to be huge!

Simple words for complex feelings...

A simple memorie can mean a lot without you we even dream...

In this pillow I have a physicaly memorie from you. Some simple and beautiful words, that you knew that are reciprocal. "Adoro-te avozinha! Agraria feeling. Mari ".

I'll never forget that sweet way you allways called me, you'll allways be my little grand daughter.

Memórias inesquecíveis

Aconchegam o coração, com

Recordações incomparáveis, que me

Inflamam de emoção!

Unforgetable Memories

Cozy the heArt, with

Incomparable Recollections, that

Inflame the emotion.

I really can't understand why did they took such a good person away, but all I can do now it's remember you with a smile on my face, and live the way you always showed us to live.

Simple and happy!

A month already passed, but seems like yesterday. I was needing to write something to you, believing that wherever you are, you'll read it and put your big and caracteristic smile.

I miss you...

Insanity or Depression???

In life everybody has great moments and really bad moments. Those moments give us lessons, and make us stronger or happier!

Till a few minutes ago, I was making completely crazy things, and I started to think that I was getting crazy, because neither I was understanding what were I doing...

Now I realized, I'm not crazy, I'm just passing a phase of my life were I am not being capable of making everything at the same time, and that's messing with my nervous sistem...

After I think a little, and try to calm down, I remembered I already felt like this 2 times in my life, and I passed it by myself.

I usualy say that depression it's a sickness of the rich people. Beacuse I already felt depressed 2 times, this it's the third, but I never needed pills to got throught it and this time will not be an exception.

I feel myself in the middle of a crossroad, and with fear of choosing a way, and that's not me... I don't have afraid of decitions...

To that I must really not push too much from myself and take one step at the time... When we want to live too fast, we forget to take the good things we have.

I'm afraid because of this bad phase I'm pushing away persons who make me well, but I hope they read this and understand what it's really happening...